The title says it all. As of my official weigh-in on Friday, my new favorite number is 99. It’s a bit surreal, quite honestly. When I stepped onto the scale on Friday morning, I knew I would be close to the 100-pound mark, but I was actually somewhat relieved that it wasn’t 100. I wasn’t quite ready for that, emotionally anyway. I’m doing a lot of reflection and introspection this week to give my emotions some time to catch up with my body.
I continue to work at my water exercise regimen with both cardio and strength training most mornings. Last week I was in the pool six days! I love the water! I want to go every day and I am generally awake and ready before the alarm goes off. It seems so odd for me to say that. Until a few months ago, I was not a morning person; the snooze button and I were very good friends! But I am committed to health and wholeness and I am amazed at the transformation that is taking place. My medical team was quite pleased with my progress, too, when I went to my 3-month post-op appointment on May 8.
Each day I log my workouts on my fitbit app and at the end of the week I get a report. The report for last week said, “You worked out 7 hours, 37 minutes this week.” I held my phone in my hand, dumbfounded. Who IS this person?!?!
So I am preparing for the century mark. I haven’t quite decided how I will celebrate. I plan to create a mosaic piece of art to mark this milestone. I thought about making a list of 100 things for which I am grateful, but that seems tedious. And I will surely do another picture with 100 pounds of something; I’m just not sure yet what that will be. I am open to suggestions, dear blog readers. Leave a comment or e-mail me your thoughts.
Ninety-nine and counting … Until next time, peace …
Today is the three-month anniversary of my surgery so I thought I would share a few pictures. The first two pictures are me with 91 pounds of dog food. This visual was really helpful for me to recognize just how far I have come. I continue to thank God each day for this tool and the opportunity to focus on wholeness – a healthy mind, body and spirit. And speaking of that … I am currently enjoying a few days away at Lakeside, a place that nourishes my spirit. I received the Lakeside Ohio Clergy Renewal Scholarship and I am grateful for the opportunity for some time away to reconnect with the One who has called me to my vocation. For any of my Ohio UM clergy friends who do not know about this, you can check it out here.
Until next time, peace …
So it’s been nearly three weeks since my last post … and on my previous weight loss journey, silence often meant struggle; that I had not lost any weight (or I had even gained) and I was trying to process it all before writing publicly again. That is not the case this time. I’ve just been busy. Busy working and busy taking care of myself. Since the beginning of March when I was released to go back to work after surgery, I have been exercising regularly. I go to the pool in the wee hours of the morning for at least an hour, four (or more!) days a week. I love the water!
One of my goals has been to shed 90 pounds by my 3-month post-op appointment on May 8. I am excited to say that as of my official Friday weigh-in yesterday, I have shed 91 pounds! (27 prior to surgery, 64 since).
While achieving one’s goals is important, I must admit that I have been a bit obsessed with the numbers. Though Fridays are my official weigh-in day – the day on which I record my weight in my tracker – I can’t help but weigh myself every day, sometimes several times a day. I’m a numbers gal. I like charts and graphs. I like to track data and look for trends. And while numbers are important, this journey is so much more than that. It’s about health. It’s about wellness. It’s about wholeness of mind, body and spirit. I don’t want to get caught in the trap again of measuring my success and my worth as a human being solely by the number on the scale. Our worth is so much greater than that. Our human value comes from our nature of being created in the image of God.
So while I will continue to be goal-oriented on this journey, I must keep praying and reminding myself that being God-oriented is the better priority.
Until next time, peace …
One of the challenges on this weight loss journey is having clothes that fit. I am down three sizes – a good problem to have! But I don’t want to spend a lot of money on clothing I will wear for only a short time. The idea of weeding through the racks at Goodwill and other thrift stores is daunting. I’ve done it, but it takes time and energy that I would much rather expend in other ways. Besides, those searches are not always fruitful.
I feel very blessed to have a friend who has given me some lovely, good-quality clothing in varying sizes that I can both wear now and as I continue to shrink. I also have another friend who gifted me with a trial subscription to Gwynnie Bee. Gwynnie Bee is an online clothing subscription that allows women access to an unlimited wardrobe. There are over 150 brands of clothing and over 3,000 styles in sizes 0 – 32. I regularly add items to my virtual closet and can prioritize which I’d like in my next shipment. They send the items to me, I wear them, and I don’t have to launder them! A bonus! A subscriber can purchase the items at a discount from the retail cost or ship them back in a pre-paid bag. And then a few days later, the next shipment arrives. I’m enjoying the opportunity to try clothing I might not ordinarily choose and, as I shed more pounds, I can get clothing in smaller sizes. It’s a perfect solution to having clothes that fit. On Saturday evening I attended a fundraiser for Medina Creative Housing and I wore a Gwynnie Bee top I had selected especially the event. It’s great! Here’s a link if you’d like to give it a try. Gwynnie Bee.
And now to give you the latest numbers … last week I shed 3 pounds, so as of Friday’s weigh-in, I have shed a total of 79 pounds (52 since surgery).
Until next time, peace …
It’s Easter! A day we celebrate the joy of the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Because of the resurrection, I firmly believe in God’s power to redeem and transform the dark and difficult places in our lives – even death – and bring Light and new life, not in some far-off time and place, but abundant life in the here and now.
Today I am grateful for the life that has been given to me through Jesus Christ and for the opportunity for more abundant living since having my gastric bypass. Today is the two-month anniversary of my surgery. Today I get to expand my menu. For the last two months I have been primarily nourished by high protein, low-fat and low-carb foods and non-carbonated, decaffeinated, and no- or low-calorie beverages. I honestly have rarely felt hunger or cravings for other foods, but I am excited that today I get to add soft, cooked vegetables. It’s Easter and I can have green bean casserole! Talk about a celebration!
In the two months since my surgery, I have SHED 49 pounds, bringing the total to 76 pounds shed since enrolling in the Cleveland Clinic’s bariatric program. Below are some before and after pictures, as well as a fun picture from my church’s Easter Egg Hunt yesterday.
Easter blessings to all. May you experience the joy of the resurrection today!
My mother always taught me to choose and use my words wisely. When talking with others, our words can encourage or discourage; they can either build up or tear down. The same can be true for the ways we talk to ourselves. Our language toward ourselves and others shapes who we are. Sometimes this is intentional and sometimes it’s just embedded in our culture and, unless we stop to reflect on our words, we may not realize their impact.
While meeting with my spiritual director two weeks ago, I was sharing about my weight loss journey and she said something that gave me pause. When discussing weight loss, she said she prefers to use the word shed. I’ve spent some time pondering that distinction and it does indeed make a difference. When we hear that something is lost, we instinctively want it to be found. Consider the “Lost” parables in Luke 15, especially the parable of the lost coin. The woman in this story loses a coin and she searches diligently – sweeping the whole house, scouring every nook and cranny – until she finds it. When something is lost, we want to find it.
Except weight, that is. I really do not want to find those 69 pounds that I have lost!
Shedding, however, means to cast off or to release; to let go. This is a much better framework for considering one’s weight and journey toward health and wholeness. And so, as of last Friday, March 23, I have SHED 69 pounds (27 prior to surgery, 42 since surgery). I have happily released them and let them go!
Until next time, peace …
Weight loss surgery is the easy way out.
I am very fortunate to have never had someone say this to me directly, but I have heard it said about weight loss surgery in general, and I have several friends who have sadly been on the receiving end of such a comment. Often people will tell an obese person, “You just need discipline. Exercise more and eat less.” Sure, some obese people have lost weight and maintained that weight loss for an extended period of time, but that is the exception, rather than the rule. Statistics indicate that 95% of people who lose weight without surgical intervention gain it back.
The truth is that obesity is a disease just like cancer, diabetes or heart disease. It just doesn’t go away with discipline or even diet. The medical community (for the most part) has recognized that it requires treatment. In 2013 the American Medical Association officially declared obesity a disease in an of itself.
As one who underwent weight loss surgery just five weeks ago, I agree emphatically that this surgery is NOT the easy way out. Allow me to share some of my experience with you.
- Weight loss surgery is surgery … and surgery is never easy. The procedure I had was the Roux-en-Y gastric bypass. Though done laparoscopically with 7 small incisions, the work done internally was significant. The average person’s stomach is about the size of a football. The surgeon reduced my stomach to the size of a large egg and then re-routed my intestines. Healing and recovery from abdominal surgery takes time and it’s painful. When I saw my surgeon for my one-week post-op appointment, I asked about the pain I had around one of my incisions. He said, “Yes, you can expect pain there. That’s where we inserted the stapler.” Yes, weight loss surgery is major surgery!
- Weight loss surgery requires commitment – commitment before and after surgery. Prior to surgery, I went through several months of medical and psychological testing as well as nutrition classes. All of these determined my fitness for surgery and commitment to the program. In addition, two weeks before surgery I had to follow a strict 800-calorie per day liquid diet. This not only showed my willingness to adhere to the program, but even more importantly, it helped decrease the size of my liver for a safer surgery. (In these surgeries, the liver must be moved out of the way to access the stomach). In addition, for surgery to be successful, commitment to post-op nutrition is very important. This includes a liquid diet after surgery and then the gradual introduction of pureed and soft foods. Even now, I must cut up my food into very small pieces and chew each piece twenty or more times. At this time I can have only proteins and next month I can add vegetables. I know that for the rest of my life I need to avoid sugars and simple carbohydrates. A few months down the road, I may be able to have a small bite of these things, but anything beyond that could lead to weight gain … and would likely make me physically sick. Commitment to regular follow up care is also important.
- Weight loss surgery has financial implications. Most people know that medical care is not cheap. While I am blessed to have insurance and am very grateful for it, my medical appointments, tests, surgery, hospitalization and follow up care cost me several thousand dollars in deductibles and out of pocket expenses. This is not meant as a complaint, it’s just the reality of medical care in general. Weight loss surgery is expensive. In addition, its recovery requires time off from work. I consider myself very blessed in this area, but for many, it is not so easy.
These are just a few responses to the “easy way out” based on my own experience. Others who have had weight loss surgery surely have additional responses. It’s not easy, but I am grateful that surgery was a treatment option for me.
So, here at five weeks post-op, my new favorite number is 61 (27 pounds before surgery, 34 pounds since) and I’m feeling pretty good about that.
Until next time, peace …